Video at bottom (click on suitcase photo) … All photos by me.
As we drove the van up to Auschwitz I was surprised at how beautiful it was. Gorgeous large plush green trees lined the small highway we were on and I couldn’t imagine a drive so beautiful leading to such a horrific fate, not to mention the intensity of someone making people believe they might be going somewhere beautiful. The bus driver put on a forty five minute video showing us the deep torture that these Jews went through a video that was not apologetic in sharing photos of twisted mangled sick people that had been left to their fate in this place. As I tried to keep my eyes on the road we finally arrived. It seemed so beautiful like small army barracks built for commanders and captains of army’s not prisoners. I couldn’t believe at first they enslaved them there as it seemed so beautiful and so small too. As I walked around and into the brick buildings lined with those same beautiful tall trees we drove by on the way there I found myself staring into torture rooms. Everyroom seemed to signify a different type of torture. As the tour guide told us the idea of a Concentration camp was to have the prisoners concentrate on dying in a multitude of ways which I never knew exactly the meaning until then.
Just a few days ago I had been sitting on my bed underneath my own tree outside my window wondering where I was going to go as my whole trip and life had seemed to be falling apart. I decided to wait for an answer purely from inside and from Spirit on what to do. In my meditation the answer came and was this; go to Poland where my father had recently told me a lot of his Jewish ancestors died and set intentions to clear and heal any genealogical patterns that were instilled in my gene pool around the beliefs my ancestral lineage had acquired by experiencing this event. So to explain what these beliefs would look like, they are invisible ideas about life someone instills within them self when going through a challenging event. Those beliefs create a ripple in the gene pool for all that come from that lineage to believe the same thing unknowingly about themselves too. Some made up example ideas would be, I just saw someone die God doesn’t exist or someone just took away all my belongings I will never be able to keep anything or life is too scary to live etc...
Hard to believe I had asked myself that question about what beliefs may have been instilled in my ancestral lineage just a few months prior not having any idea I would actually be going here.
I didn’t tell many people at first what I was doing as I thought they would not understand how this could be a part of my dream trip and I judged it as dark, but all I wanted to do was heal my beliefs around abundance and lack and self worth, the things that seemed to be instilled in me since I was little and also honor those ancestors that died in some way.
As I walked around Auschwitz the awareness that came was that perhaps my ancestors were the ones pulling me there in the first place and in that moment I was the one that felt honored.
A lot of thoughts ran through my head as I walked through this place mainly the idea of sacrifice, lessons of the planet earth and the lessons of particular populations as a whole and what the higher more spiritual lesson was in all of this and what I could learn from it as I walk through this life.
I didn’t have much time as the tour was fast. I brought my art supplies ran into an open field just outside of the camp and recorded myself doing a genealogical healing prayer and painting as a modes to heal in a deeper way those painful beliefs left over in my gene pool.
I can say all of Poland was an incredible experience and there is more to share but I wanted to share this video first and the profound blessing it has brought me to have been able not only follow my intuition completely but follow Spirit in such a profound way to be able to do this. More to come. Here is the Video…..
