"Letters Home" Letter # 4, The Healing of Memories
OMG I did not want to share this next one, I kept avoiding it as so many shifts have happened from the inside out. My whole view of what home means to me has kind of transmuted into the fact that it had nothing to do with the home I grew up in but the image I had of my house and the people that was reflected back to me and it wasn't always pretty. I've been looking at places within me that have not been easy to look at and it has caused me to see some of my addictive behaviors and start to see the depth and power of what taking responsibility for oneself really means and it is transformational. As I've done that and looked at the moments where I felt like I failed, I've found there was always a moment of pain as I took responsibility for it no matter how hurtful I thought anyone else involved in it was and it began to shift everything. Then I found this great quote as I was listening to a seminar.
"That transitory dismay that you go through when you admit the truth of something to yourself is the temporary passing discomfort that you can see how selfish you are in a relationship, you can see how self-interested you are, you can see how indifferent you are, you can see how unloving you are in some areas so it becomes somewhat painful, the pathway of inner searching can become painful.
There are saints that say how they went from elated states to states of despair, ohh my beloved how could you have deserted me. States of great anguish see, and don’t worry about the states of great anguish, just surrender the anguish itself to God and constantly surrender all of it, don’t resist the anguish if it should come up because if your serious it will very likely come up again."
- The Ultimate David Hawkins Library, audio segment.
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Here's a testimonial from a recent client.
"One of the key things I’ve taken from working with Liz is my involvement in ego, control, manipulation and taking responsibility of any and all of it within me and letting that go. She helped me gain my strength, confidence and power in myself and see from a higher perspective. She completely understood my language and how to speak to me, no matter how abstract, I felt completely safe and held."
- MK, Austin Texas
Letter # 4, The Healing of Memories
8" X 10" String and Acrylic on Canvas.
Dear Home,
As I lift into greater attunement
Everything seems messier like my room when I was a teenager
My mom would come in and ask me to clean it but there was something painful in the exchange that made me freeze
And wonder why I hadn't in the first place
I wondered what the point was
So what is the point of having a clean room
And who's fault is it anyway that it's messy
Was it because you didn't teach me how to clean it
Or did I create the situation before I came into this world
And this moment is my awareness of myself becoming aware of myself in something I created perfectly?
Or was I aware then?
Am I aware now?
My point is, it's still not clean in my consciousness and I'm still confused at your part in that
So I pull in Spirit and say be with me as I clean my room inside myself
Help me heal
And Spirit comes into my room as it was then and holds me and tells me
I'm beautiful anyway
And at first I don't know what it's talking about
But then I surrender and begin to see
And there's a flash of deep embarrassment so intense
And chaos gives birth to love
And everything in that memory dissolves and my life around me shifts now
And I realize then and now is one
And I use my memories to bring me closer to my dreams.
I love you,
-Liz